Welcome to my weekly diary which records the emotional highs and lows from my writing life.
I have not been well this week. For noting, readers – never make fun of your beloved when they have a bad cold. Don’t joke about man flu. I did this with my other half and I ended up bedridden, tissue balls shoved up each nostril and coughing up a lung!
Cold medication didn’t do much for my streaming nose, aching limbs and sore throat. Feeling frustrated I propped up my pillows, wedged a slab of chocolate into my mouth, replaced my tissue balls and turned to writing. 1456 words later on a brand new story and I felt loads better. I think pharmacists should now prescribe writing to cure a heavy cold.
What’s happened this week?
It amazes me how fast things come together once you have made a decision.
This week I found a wonderful book cover designer for my soon to be published novel; Instructions For Falling In Love Again.
I have been searching for a designer for ages. For about a year, whilst I chewed over the idea of self-publishing and at the same time queried this story with agents, I searched high and low for a cover designer. To my dismay I struggled to connect with any designer and was left wondering whether this failed search was a sign. Maybe I wasn’t meant to self-publish? Perhaps I should stick Instructions in a drawer and forget about it?
Then a fortnight after saying, ‘oh sod it – I am going to go for it!’ I found a designer and her first idea for a book cover made my eyes prick with tears.
It was the sort of cover I had always wanted and it fits the romantic comedy market perfectly.
We are currently in the tweaking and refining stage but I am pleased to say my dream of becoming an author has crept a little closer.
Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
This has also been the week where the self-publishing nerves have started to jangle. It all feels real now and at times terrifying.
I keep worrying about whether my story will live up to its cover. Never thought I would worry about this but now that I have seen the cover, I am. Hopefully I will do it justice.
So in order to manage my nerves I have created a list of things to repeat back to them.
- Self-publishing will give me a chance to grow and develop.
- I can only do my best.
- This is my first novel so it will be a test and learn exercise.
- Starting this process has made me feel alive. Yes it is scary, but it is also exciting.
- I miss my Wattpad days where I connected with readers. This is what I love about writing. Self-publishing will give me this.
- It will be a steep learning curve.
- As motivational speaker and author Mel Robbins says, ‘go brick by brick to make it stick’ so small steps.
I finished rewriting my second draft, The Patient / The Neighbour (still not sure on title).
Drafts become so heavy by the end. It’s a strange feeling. You enter what I call Snail Stage. Your story is the big, heavy shell on your back and it has kept on growing. As well as the expanding story you also carry your worries and emotional baggage connected to it too. You become weary and are down to a slow shuffle in life.
Once you write those magical words, The End, your shell disappears and you are free, until the next project.
You would not believe the procrastinating anguish I went through with getting this story across the line. My goodness between 35 – 55k words I was a mess. I think I went through every form of procrastination; social media, housework, Netflix, tidying cupboards, impromptu date nights, polishing my leather sofa and picking fluff up from the carpet. At one point I rearranged my knickers drawer and colour coded it.
The main thing is I got to 80k and that was my goal!
Here is this week’s episode of my fictional series about the lives of my two pets; Harry the cat and Po the dog.
When Harry Met Po
This week we are going down memory lane. Back to when the two furry chums first met.
One day a young puppy arrived looking smart and dapper.
Even though he was officially named Po, he asked everyone to call him, Sherlock Bones.
To everyone’s amazement by the end of the first week Sherlock Bones had solved the case of the missing sock.
A bad person had hidden the sock amongst the messy vegetable patch. Luckily the family had Sherlock Bones to help them.
Harry the cat watched his human owners get hysterical (especially the blonde one) and praise the clever pup.
They had failed to notice that Sherlock Bones had placed the sock there himself two days earlier.
Harry liked this little sly pup.
Sherlock Bones had their owners (especially the blonde one) wrapped around his golden paw.
The amount of pet mischief and havoc they could cause together excited Harry.
Later that day Harry allowed the newcomer to sleep on his sofa with him.
There will be more from Harry and Po next week.
Have a great week!