In terms of writer distraction this has been the worse.
The ‘what am I?’ question will mess with your head and even when you think you know what you are, another little voice will whisper, ‘but what if you wrote stuff like this…’
I worry about the length of time it has taken me to figure out and accept what kind of writer I am. Four years to be precise. I am sure most writers come to the table with a good idea of what they want to write and I have spent four years going round in circles. Please comment if you disagree as I am hoping this creative soul-searching business is normal.
It has taken far longer than I expected. I have had to write a lot of wrong stuff, what I mean by this, is writing which doesn’t suit me or bring out the best in me, to get to this stage.
After four long years, filled with a lot of creative and emotional turmoil, thousands of words and loads of soul-searching blog posts, I have finally come to the conclusion that my writing heart lies with romantic comedy.
I can’t believe it has taken me this long to work this one out and here’s the important bit…BE OKAY WITH THAT. If you think getting to the figuring out stage was the hard bit – think again. Accepting what you write best involves another head wrestle.
Learning to accept that my thing in life is to write romantic comedy has been interesting, as for years it didn’t sit right in my head.
I have fought against the comedy side for ages and spent a lot of this year writing dark stuff in an attempt to run away from it.
But, the comedy side of me has refused to go away. Whilst writing, ‘I want to write dark thrillers‘ blog posts I would be looking for spare cupboards, to crawl inside, drink wine and record my Roxy comedy series.
For some reason, I didn’t rate writing funny stuff. I thought writing a good book was all about writing something serious and intellectual. At work I would find myself DREAMING about crafting fine prose, which boffins (with large foreheads) would let out soft moans of pleasure over in dusty libraries.
After four years you will be glad to know I have come to my senses. In real life I struggle to come out with serious and intellectual stuff, so why am I expecting to write it?
Here’s where my head is at today:
Writing is all about evoking a reaction in your reader. Making a reader smile or chuckle is a reaction.
I have tried writing other genres. This year I wrote a thriller and it made me depressed. I also wrote a serious romance and it turned out dreary.
After every failed attempt at writing something else my romantic comedy stories are always waiting for me.
I am a romantic comedy writer. That’s it. I am no longer trying to be anything else.
Since I came to this conclusion I have had a number of literary successes. The universe is trying to tell me something. Weirdly, I did go to a psychic and spiritual fair a few months ago and the lady who did my tarot cards told me, my spirit guides were getting frustrated with me as I WAS NOT LISTENING to them. At the time I had just started writing a dark thriller. I am now starting to wonder whether this was why they were frustrated.
Maybe they have been trying to encourage me to write romantic comedy for FOUR years and I have not listened to them?
Keep writing, folks!
A big shout out to all my spirit guides – I am listening now. *Sigh*